Creeping Death

niedziela, 28 grudnia 2008

VII (Zemsta)

"Zawieszony w próżni dzisiaj tak,
jak kopnięty
przed sekundą
pies!


Co mam zrobić?
nie wiem, nie wiem sam!
Nikt nie powie tego przecież mi!
Zostać tu
czy uciec wnet?


Uciec, uciec.
Dokąd? nie wiem gdzie.
Tak zmieszany z błotem,
pozbawiony marzeń,
wizji teraz brak.


Jak kopnięty w dupę
pies!
Chyba nie wyliże z tego się!
Jednak czas już działać póki co,
ruszyć stąd!
Nie dać stłamsić
do końca się!
Jeszcze los odmieni
przecież się!


Czas powiedzieć "pass",
to ostatni Twój już klaps.
Już nie dobijesz mnie!
Na tej krótkiej prostej,
ja zdubluję przecież Cię!
Nie złapiesz mnie!


Wyjmuję nóż,
ten który Ty
wbiłeś mi w plecy,
gdy zaufałem Ci!!!


Rany,
krwawiące rany!
Krwotok,
to z moich ran,
gojących się wnet,
gdy już obok Ciebie
nie ma mnie!


Blizny,
pozostają,
jednak nie bolą!
Pamięć,
najbardziej ulotna!
Lęk,
zwalczony!
Czas,
nadejdzie słuszny!


Jeszcze tu wrócę i
pogryzę Cie!
Nie użyję noża,
ze mnie nie ten typ,
ni narzędzia by skaleczyć Cię!
Tylko własny
oręż skromny mój.
Własny, czysty, ostry
kieł!


Jak kopnięty
przed sekundą pies!
Co ma w głowie
ten podstępny plan!
Uważaj, bo ugryzę
dzisiaj Cię!!! "



po raz pierwszy coś zamieszczam tutaj w moim języku. jak zwykle nie nadaje tytułów, bo też po co? jednak nie mówię "NIE", może to spodoba kiedyś mi się...



czwartek, 18 grudnia 2008

VI



Out of Control,
out of the Time.
Disorder!


Like an alien
in this world,
despite I'm
in soothing place,
I feel so wrong.


Anxiety, denial, lonelyness.
I've got that all.
Feel so wrong


Out of Control,
out of the mind.
Disaster!


These feelings are winning again,
losing yourself.
Stand alone.
No soothing arms
to welcome me
in this place.


No way
to salvation
in secrete place.
No return
to preservation.
Destiny is out
of good location.
Emptiness in my head.
Desolation!


Arrogancy, Ignorancy of me.
Piercing my skin.
It's killing my senses.


Headache, heartache, soul's pain
only I feel.
Feeling so warm.
The fear is coming.
Fear inside of me.
Stand alone.
So hold me, please.
hold me so tight.
Pull my rope
and never let me out!


I am
out of control.
Losing my time.
I hear them walk on.
This awesome marsh.
Apprehension' feelings
are coming here.
Emptiness increased.
Explosive I hear,
ringing in my ears,
that's hypnotized me!


Palpitations, nervous, shortness of breath
in minutes I feel.
I can't breath, I scream...
I'm out of reality.



Plug me into your world,

show me the truth,

take me out of agony,

give me your trust.

My world ruined,

the curse raped me out,

destroyed my life.

Take me out of here!

Let me be

and

don't let me hurt...!




środa, 3 grudnia 2008

V



„So I say to you:

ask, and it will be given to you

seek, and you will find

knock, and it will be opened to you”




You give,

You lead the life into me,

then you’re taking out

of me.




You say:

“trust and using what you want!”

,but you never tell me:

“Nothing’s for free”




You make me happy,

then you’re damagging my world.

You give

the love to me

for my faith,

then you tell me:

“Give it all

back to me!”




You’re hitting me

as you want.

Tell me,why?

Am I experimental rat?

How long?

Trust me,

It’s hurting so hard!




When I ask to you

about the trace.

Trace to heal.

Trace to trust.

You’re looking

like a blind,

you don’t see the signs,

like a deaf,

you don’t wanna listen to me,

like a stone,

in this time!



You don't want to

help me.

You don’t want to

see my role.

Role that you’ve

given to me.




If I’d make a sin,

you’re getting blame to me.

You’re never thinking

about your moves,

and you hurt me

so hard!




I don’t wanna

this world’s cage.

I’d like to end this game,

but often I have

no strengths.




And even I play

like you want,

like you need,

you’re going to end my role,

to end my time,

when you want!

You never informate to me,

but you’ve said

that:

“Love me so much!”




And If I’d be sinner

instead od angel,

one time you’ll command to me

repay for life.

Life in earth’s hell.

It’s hurting truth.

That’s betrayal.

You are Lier.




Nevermind

what I’ll choose.

Suicide, sanctify,

purify or your faild words,

each breath I die

a little more!




Twilight is here.

Armageddon’s back.

Ascendancy is out!




Nevermind

what you tell

or I’ll do.

b.

You’re my demon.

Demon that will never shine again.

You lied to me.

Living how I want,

despite your rules.

Flushing out you

from my board.

This is my desire!




Nevermind

what you said.

That’s betrayal.

You are Lier.

Kiss my ass,

and say goodbye.

It’s time.

That’s all!




wtorek, 11 listopada 2008

IV



“And my heart’s crying
my thoughts were remembrance of you
whispered to my ears
she’s gone.


“let’s funny, life is play,
be my friend”-you said,
and all things,
all of lucky whiles
faded away.
That’s swallowed by lies.


Black cloud
covered my head.
The thunder and lightning.
The chills have run along my back.
Frozen me,
broken me.
Felt so empty,
felt so wrong
like sliping away.


No love
you gave me.
No respect
you gave me.
Sorrow stand,
destroyed me.


That was my burden.
Part of me wanted
get you back,
but you’re not.
Really of me,
that being of me replied:
“Get out of here
and never back.”


The down of me.
It seemed like this.
I couldn’t move at all,
but I will rise me up.
I swear on God.
You’ll repay me for that.
I swear,
You will down to me.


One day you look at me,
and you’ll see smile on my face,
during you’re crying.
My rising up will be done.
Sorrow will leave me out,
the mist will run away.
Sun shall shine.


One day you will see,
that nobody shouldn’t hurt anyone,
‘cause your bullets getting suddenly back to you.
In every time if you’d be happy.


This moment
you’ll point your finger
to find the cure,
but staying alone,
‘cause you’ve been hurt them.
Emptiness and sorrow.
Only your companies.
Last breath
you’ll have no chance.
Chance to hide.


Grave,
you’ll be laying inside.
There’ll be no one
to crying for you.
And you’ll see
that you sinned before.


No one
to cover your grave.
You’ll be lost.
Final breath.
No return.
You’ll be dead so lonely.
And you’ll never be back
‘cause it’s time to pay.
You’ll pay for the sins.
Forever you’ll end.
Your soul is dead.
Time to say:
Goodbye,
Forever
AMEN…”



środa, 29 października 2008

III




"When you're looking at the mirror

you see that's not right.
It's a false
What're you watching on
it's wrong
So different what you seemed before.
If you'd like to change it
you will never do it.
You live it somehow you've planned
and you'll never be back
to this race.
You got what you've wanted
and you're the truck on the road.
You gave no really satisfaction
and you lost your fucking chance.
You'll damage yourself
behind this turn
there's no way.


Selfdestruction
changed your mind
Selfdestruction
changed your time


Mentally Illness that you've got
from you're born.


Greed, Lust, Hatred
that were in your mind
from you're born
that closed your eyes.
I've seen that inside before...


Love, friendship
never felt that ones.
You killed all of your brothers.
You stand alone.
You were flush out from your board
the middle road
you stay alone there and thinking on
but the truck's smashing to your head.
Alone in this time
on the road to hell...


Selfdestruction
changed your mind
Selfdestruction
changed your time
Selfdestruction...


Now you're sick
feel the pain
pain and fear.
Fear of the marching time.
You're alone.
There's no one
no helping hand
and you'll not find way
way to healing.
You're down deep
better, don't move
you'll never rise again
it's not your time.
Emptiness around you.
Destroyed even yourself.


Schizophrenia
raped your mind
Claustrofobic
killed your imaging
Sefdestruction
killed your world


Lies
You used the terrible words
that's not truth.

Fucking Lies
in a talk to another
in every time as you tell.

Lied
to kill this empty frustraction
to gain the goal of your Lust & Greed.

Lie
Nevermore from your mouths again
You say - enough,enough...
what's more?what's now?
Your damage's done
Lost yourself
It's the end !"




to powyższe powstało w zeszłym tygodniu.
jak zwykle, nie nadaję tytułów, bo to nic szczególnego...

czwartek, 23 października 2008

II

"I don't want to die today
I'm just going to be born again
I choose my life in this earth's quake
than this fucking way to hell
there's terrible temptation
that I follow it
I cannot stop this monster marsh
I want to scream, I want to cry
but I don't know what to do
because you don't wanna help me"





ponownie rzecz powstała jakieś pięć lat temu...
nie pomyślcie,że jestem jakimś emo-dzieckiem...
nic z tych rzeczy...po prostu fajnie mi się to pisało...
jakieś inspiracje?możliwe,a raczej na pewno....
coś jakby film "Requiem Dla Snu" i piosenka "One" Metallici...

I




"God help me
live in this

hell I feel

oh God, it all seems

like it only rains

on me

God, please wake me now

give me up

your soothing hand

oh God, take me off"





wybaczcie, jednak nie będę nadawał tytułów moim postom...
tekst powyżej powstał jakieś pięć lat temu, nie pamiętam w jakich okolicznościach. Wiem, że była to pierwsza rzecz napisana przeze mnie... co najlepsze w ogóle nie chciałem nic tego popołudnia pisać. kiedyś robiłem to częściej-przetrwały dwa, może trzy teksty...które zamieszczę w kolejnych postach. obecnie zawiesiłem tej czynności, gdyż za specjalnym Twórcą nie jestem...